Unplanned training

At Monday morning I decided drive to Gym (anyway I now having membership and they can do child minding for free during morning class).
I decided go to Body Pump. Leave Anna-Bella with nice women and go to class. Funny feeling - its looks like weightlifting at Olympics :)
I almost straight get pain in knee (I guess doing sit down and up with weight need carefully and correct).
I was in class nearly 10-15 min and then leave to go to ice (ice rink just under Gym, you can see skaters from window in Gym class). It was to much for me - just look and not skate. and Gym class looks a little boring.
So I unexpected went to ice skating. There even was my coach and some known girls - adults skaters.
Its looks like I need really enjoy ice and skating.
But...strange - not! I feel me lost. Have no idea what to do (after did first simple steps tried concentrate and do something else but was hard to remember steps what I did at training with coach (only easily come old steps with first coaches - maybe because I did them during few years...)
Or maybe my thinking was about my baby, that I leave her.
Or maybe mentally I was not ready for skating...

Was funny moment when after did some steps I tried to do spins. And cant get it. My coach L seen what I doing and scream me -  Why you doing spins. You not ready. Go do steps first :)
She was absolutely wright. I just was a little hurry :)

Any way at the end I can get some upright spin, sit spin, and did some attempts of  back upright spin (not too bad). and did some waltz jump - just for warm up jumps (I hope I soon will be do them at trainings :)
and at the end did some spirals and just one circle cross overs for feel speed.

So skating was not too bad, and I get some results, just been not happy and not enough concentrate on what im doing and what order.
Next time I need be ready and have some plan :)

Not sure if I will be visit ice one more time during the week or only training.
My baby looks a little unsettle during the day, hard go to sleep. And I start thinking that maybe its because I leave her at morning for child minding.

So had some bad depressive thinking - maybe I not need Gym and ice skating. Maybe its too early for me and kids. Maybe I need give them more attention. Maybe better save money and delete all this spends for sport (because we in really hard financial situation - move in minus on our card, spends more than income, and I trying looking for some job for bring more money in family).
A lot different thinking :)
I hope soon I could decide all this questions.
Will see!
Life always show the way :)
Thinking positive!

Mistakes

I just this weekend visited public session. At start - fresh ice, great skating on the edge, not much kids with frames :)
And even seen one adult couple who was practicing their pair skating routine. Looks good! And think its much harder job (of course partner support you, but its more responsibility I think). Good luck guys!
so about my skating - its feels better. looks like I start feel ice. steps goes better but not great :) Spins like disaster, try repeat but nothing help and been more and more mistakes.
Jumps jump away from me. Speed now a little bit better and jump seems for me higher and I scared and landing on two feet (not good at all. so strange mistakes...)
So I keep practicing and keep doing mistakes.
And at one point I realise that its bad. I no need remember my mistakes, because with so many times trying  my body will remember all this wrong moments and I keep doing it in future.
So I decided do element just few times, and stop at moment when this jump good enough.
So I did it with all my jumps, and sometimes when it was not good I tried at least visualised in my head how I doing its good. I really think its helping (often before competitions I visualised my program on the ice, all elements one after another and feel more confident).
At point when all jumps been done and still looks not good I decided go back to my terrible spins. I did upright spin and... what a miracle! its been done just perfect (with good speed). That was great! So sometimes really better do some break and leave element but not  keep trying doing it when you tired.
And at this good point I stop doing elements and decide finish on positive moment and leave ice with good emotions.

positive-positive-positive :)

P.S.
Today my second training. Really excided, waiting this moment. hope everything will be good :)